Soul Snacks: Whispers of Reverence

Stardate: 0208.26 Feels like a moody fall morning with the potential for magic

It's been interesting, doing my best to observe, wanting to participate but not having anything specific to participate in. Nothing I want anyways lol This week was a bit lighter for me but I know that's not the case for everyone so hold space for yourself and let that be enough. It's not to say it's been a great week but I have been able to find some balance in the ripples of turbulence streaming through. I've never been surfing but it made me thinking of wobbling precariously on a surf board in a turbulent ocean with an agenda of it's own.

As always and a gentle reminder, if what I'm sharing is chafing, or doesn't feel right, or makes you feel bad about you and where you're at, it's ok - chances are this may not be for you or where you're at right now. It may not serve you to read it. One of the greatest things we can do is honor where we are at and let go of comparing ourselves to what others are experiencing - even if we don't like it there is a quiet strength that comes with that. A centering if you will. There is something powerful about respecting yourself enough to not diminish your capacity and the experience you're having.

Speaking of centering, I noticed a shift in how energy was moving within my fields. It used to feel like energy was moving from the ground up through me. Up and out lol It always made the energy coming down and in a bit of a clash and it also felt at odds with the energy I was pulling in around me, but recently it has shifted. It now seems to circulate around me. It feels like it's coming out of my heart/chest area and then around my body. Maybe a little more self-contained.

Kind of like when you have ventilation in a car or you turn on the AC. You can either pull the air in from the outside and have the car cool it down or you can circulate the air within your car - which makes it easier for the car to stay cool. Maybe less gas is used in the process. So I feel like perhaps, I'm pulling in less outside energy having to regulate it and circulating more of what I already have. I do feel we are all shifting in how we engage energy but it maybe feel different to you so honor that. For those of us who are sensitive to energy currents it may throw you off a little until the new change because more well known to you.

Letting Go of What's Familiar

This feels like a continuation because honestly it's hard and we've been working through the dense karmic energies since Christ was a cowboy. Now I will never say that what you're doing is keeping you from being free or experiencing that with which you long for. I truly believe that if we had that kind of control right now no one would be reading my blog and the spiritual practitioners (including me) would be out of work lol But what I will say is there is a big push to release any fear you may have in letting go of what was familiar - especially if it's not actually making you feel better. The things that were familiar to the old, survivalist version of ourselves can not serve who we have become. It's a clash of power and creates disorientation.

This isn't just relationships or people or material things - this is also believes, reactions and behaviors. This isn't about managing your behavior or fixing yourself - but it is about awareness. If you are experiencing negative looping thoughts or a negatively filtered perspective, your energy may be trying to show you what it's time to let go of. Instead of seeing this as something that gets louder when it's dying off - maybe it's more of being immersed in something to let you know it's time to let it go. Because, honestly, if it doesn't feel good, why are you commiserating with it?

The fields of energy that surround you interact with all kinds of energy that affect you. How you think, feel, or respond to life. Both positively and negatively. We can't control that. New energy might feel exciting and create curiosity, or it may generate fear if you tend to struggle with change without a map. There is no right or wrong here. Your mind and nervous system will respond or exchange with what is familiar first and often reject what isn't. All you can do is be aware of what you're thinking and feeling and place that on a register somewhere between feels good or doesn't feel good.

I have been doing this myself. My parents came home from camp for a few hours and while the experience did bare the weight it normally does, it took me a few hours to regulate again after. My parents energy is the same energy I used to be in but have now outgrown. When I've spent time around them I notice that my old fears and worries start to pop up and I lose faith in myself and Source and what have you. It's easy to go there. It's where I went for 80% of my life. It's what's familiar. But now, I'm starting to realize how those thoughts and feelings affect me. My body is on edge and I can't seem to settle. It's not some intuition trying to save me from something horrible - it's the friction between where I'm at now (energetically) and the energy I'm entertaining.

So now, I've started to clock it. And when my awareness hits I start talking to myself, iykyk. Candice, this is a filter and this is the only action you have when you are seeing the world through this filter - the action being the negative thoughts and feelings. There is nothing to do but let it pass and don't give it any of your energy. And truly, it passes and then I feel and see clearly again. For me, it's not worth it to entertain it anymore. Has it made manifestations magically appear? No. Has being negative and engaging in that energy actually fixed anything or made my manifestations appear? Also no. And I do feel more regulated and calm and at peace with things and that has to count for something.

The best advice I can give you with this is that if you're feeling crappy or in a place you believe you can't get out of - ask yourself what sandbox are you playing in and how is that impacting your ability to think, feel, and see clearly? Sometimes we just need a reminder that we don't have to entertain what cages us once we become aware of it.

Soulful Appreciation

I have a love/hate relationship with gratitude if I'm being honest. I don't think there is anything wrong with being grateful or showing gratitude. I have beef with the way the spiritual community made it an access point to being worthy, like a gateway to your manifestations. You'll get what you desire if you're grateful enough for it. I have too much integrity to fake it and it absolutely chafes against the part of me that fought so hard to get out of the good girl programming I was raised in. God, Universe, Source always sees you as worthy so you can too. Gratitude does not make you more receptive, especially if it's forced. It does, however, allow perspective and the ease of mind that comes with that.

That being said I do feel like for some of you there will be information coming to light or experiences to be had that will give you much to be grateful for. I associate this feeling to when I've been sick or in pain and then I recover and the pain or illness goes away. It's a relief of some kind. This doesn't feel like a false sense of gratitude or needing to placate with gratitude - like when you convince yourself something is ok because it has a greater purpose. I feel a bit of anger when feeling into that so there may be a release of needing to be considerate of such things right now and just let yourself feel what you feel. Just because things have purpose doesn't always make it ok.

Ok, back to the soulful appreciation part lol Perhaps you will receive some clarity as to why things happened the way they did and it allows you to be grateful. Like certain people moving out of your life or relationships changing or falling out of love with the job you have or the work you're doing, and the grief that comes with all that. Maybe it's experiencing something that has made all these pivots and turns worth it or affirming for you.

Regardless, it will be something that brings up a natural feeling of gratitude or relief. Maybe it's even something that gives you permission to move forward and no longer hold yourself back. Maybe it's something that allows you to be thankful for what once was and also be grateful that it's time to move on. With no hard feelings. Just peace.

Letting Go of Urgency

I won't lie - like when do I ever insert eye roll here - but I struggle a lot with this one. And it's not even the ageism we face on a daily basis where time is running out ... blah blah blah. It's not even FOMO.

It's this urgency to experience what we desire cultivated by the contrasting lack of said desires in our every day lives. It makes it hard to be present. It makes it hard not to visit familiar thought patterns of doubt and worry. I just want it all to happen already.

Sometimes in these spaces we entertain and old but, again, familiar concepts that if we haven't experienced it yet there must be something we can do. But here, in this space, it's all in the hands of the divine, for lack of a better way to put it. The wheels in motion are being moved by those beyond our pay grade and no matter what we do or don't do those wheels are turning. Maybe not as fast as we'd like in order to stay sane, but they are moving. They are in constant motion.

I do know that we will either be working on our patience this week or having experiences that allow us to be patient. I don't feel either are a bad thing. I don't feel like the work I speak of is actually work. It feels like something settling in a little to allow us to be comfortable with the big energies coming in. Maybe giving us ease in our quest for allowance.

If there is something to act on, you'll feel it. It will feel exciting or neutral. I was going to say if you're pushed by fear it may be the ego but right now if fear is the only thing Source can tickle to get you to move then maybe it's ordained. You can't actually mess anything up or delay anything so I'm not going to sit here and tell you that you have to be obedient and get it all right for this all to unfold for you. I don't believe it works that way. If it did, those of us who learned how to be "good" would be on cloud 9 right now rolling deep in our desires, but here we are lol

I'm going to take this moment and shamelessly plug for the umpteenth time that we are no longer in the karmic cycles of life. We are no longer in the messy timelines even if it feels messy. Nothing is going as we expected but that serves for the both the good and the bad. So whatever preconceived notions we are running with, they are most likely obsolete. We get to be students of life again and let it show us what's transpiring in real time.

Achievements

We are reaching a milestone this week. What milestone is that? I don't know. I don't know if it's energetic like fully anchoring in the timeline shift we've been moving into this whole year - and part of last. Where the world doesn't seem different but we are, in a more permanent sense. Kind of like how I talked about the way energy is circling in my fields and I'm taking in less external trash energy.

Or if it's physical like we will actually experience some manifestations of some kind. I don't know exactly as it may be different for each one of you reading this blog. It has participation trophy vibes but honestly we've been navigating a - what seems like involuntary - gauntlet so it's appropriate in my mind. Like everyone gets some kind of gift for showing up and doing their best with what they have at their disposal.

I do know something will be achieved. It will feel like an accomplishment whatever it is for you. I want to say it will be obvious but if it isn't right away, it will become that in reflection later. You will have understanding and that will only bolster your new outlook on life.

It could be finally being free of something. Again, whether that's a tangible something I don't know. It could be both tangible and non-tangible. Like free of a relationship that you knew wasn't healthy but stuck around out of loyalty or guilt or shame. Or it could be waking up one morning and realizing you're the cats meow and no longer having negative thoughts about yourself. Maybe it's a sudden influx of courage or impulse to do the thing that didn't feel like it could be done before because it wasn't time and now it is. It could be something or someone coming into your life that feels like the green light you've been waiting for.

Honestly it could be anything but whatever it is, it will fee good and that's what matters.